Sunday, August 10, 2014

18 Week update!

It is so odd to think that in just a couple weeks I will be halfway through being pregnant (that is, if the baby comes out at 40 weeks and doesn't get too comfortable in there!) I feel like this week and the next one will be weeks with some fun milestones (getting to feel the baby move and finding out what we are having). We are so over the moon about this little one and the next big thing we are looking forward to is Noah being able to feel the baby move too...hopefully that comes soon :) 

How far along:  18 weeks
Baby is the size of a: Sweet Potato!
Showing: Same as the last update…showing for those that know me but no brave strangers yet :)
Gender: We will find out in 6 days! We have everything we need for our little reveal and we cannot wait to find out!
Maternity clothes:  For the most part, yes. I have some jeans I can get away with putting the belly band on still…but I have a feeling those days will be over soon.
Belly button in or out: In.
Symptoms: Some pain from everything stretching, but nothing too crazy yet. I have been really tired again too, I think all of baby’s growing is making me tired!
Sleep: Still been ok, wake up to adjust in bed and go to the bathroom more than I used to.
Cravings: Nothing too specific…this week all I wanted was an iced chai from a coffee shop by us.
Queasy or sick: I think that is all behind me now…
Best moment this week: Feeling baby move for the first time! So incredibly exciting!
Worst moment this week: It is just tough at work when I am feeling so tired.
Miss anything: We were at a party last night and I do miss being able to have some wine or a margarita at those events.
Movement: Yes!!! Finally!

Looking forward to: Knowing what we are having and Noah being able to feel this little gem move too!

Well, that is all...but I will leave you with this lovely blooper picture haha. I was so tired today! I definitely took a nap right after this :)

Have a great week!

With Love,

Monday, August 4, 2014

16 week update!

Well, I am up to date with all the pictures we have now. Hopefully we will get an 18 week picture soon so I can try to keep record of my belly growth! But for now, here is my 16 week update that is finally being posted!

How far along:  16 weeks
Baby is the size of a: Avocado!
Showing: Not enough for people to be brave and ask when I am due, but definitely have a belly to those who know me :)
Gender: We find out this month!!!
Maternity clothes: Yup. Finally had to put away the last pair of non maternity work pants that fit until now.
Belly button in or out: in
Symptoms: My skin is still trying to figure out all these hormones and decides breaking out is a great way to deal with it….(so not cool). Other than that, feeling pretty darn good!
Sleep: I wake up about 2 times a night to go to the bathroom…that isn’t my favorite but I know it will get much worse as I get bigger haha.
Cravings: Nothing really…I definitely want savory foods more than sweet which is totally opposite of what I typically want.
Queasy or sick: Not at all
Best moment this week: Knowing we will know so soon what is growing inside me!
Worst moment this week: This week has been great, nothing bad to report :)
Miss anything: Mmm a good glass of wine or a margarita would be nice haha
Movement: Nothing yet!
Looking forward to:  Feeling movement and finding out if we are having a little boy or girl on August 16th!

With love,

13 week update

Clearly taking a picture each week is my strong suit (sense the sarcasm)...We took a picture at 6 weeks one at 7 weeks then another at 13. oops.

So here is what I looked like at 13 weeks!

How far along:  13 Weeks
Baby is the size of a: Peach
Showing: I think so (after looking at the picture, I sure hope this is considered showing!! haha!)
Gender: We will have our ultrasound on August 7th and find out on August 16th.
Maternity clothes: Some, mostly able to get away with just a belly band for now.
Belly button in or out: in
Symptoms: I feel like some energy is coming back but I am still pretty tired.
Sleep: It has been a little tough, waking up in the night a lot.
Cravings: I still am just loving fruit. I can’t stomach veggies right now which is odd…I typically love them.
Queasy or sick: Not really, every now and again I eat something that will get my stomach upset but overall pretty good.
Best moment this week: Getting to tell everyone! 
Worst moment this week: Nothing really, everything has been pretty good.
Miss anything: Not really.
Movement: Not yet, excited for that first time I feel something though!
Looking forward to: Finding out what we are having and feeling movement for the first time!

I hope this update finds you well :)

With love,

Tuesday, July 29, 2014


I am pretty sure this will not come as a surprise to anyone at this point, but I wanted to document this pregnancy from the beginning. So, while these are intended to be weekly posts....I have already been terrible about taking a picture each week. However, I figure some is better than none! So here it is from the beginning!
The day we found out! (May 3rd!)

It was so difficult keeping this a secret up until a little less than a month ago, and when we finally told the world, this is how we did it

As I said in the beginning, I am trying to do weekly updates...but that hasn't exactly been happening but here is the first picture I took at about 6 weeks

How far along: 6 weeks
Baby is the size of a: Sweet Pea!
Showing: nope
Gender: not sure yet  
Maternity clothes: nope.
Belly button in or out: in
Symptoms: Tired all the time! Feeling sick whenever I eat, luckily eating fruit has seemed safe and my belly has been ok with it. Oh and the breaking out...that can stop any time now.
Sleep: It has been good, a few nights of lower back pain made it tough but nothing crazy.
Cravings: Fruit and Mexican food
Queasy or sick: Unfortunately, that started this week....womp womp.
Best moment this week: Realizing that my birthday next year I will be a Mamma! 
Worst moment this week: The sickness catching up to me.
Miss anything: Energy 
Movement: Can’t feel anything yet!
Looking forward to: Our first ultrasound!

I know that hearing about my growing little one is probably terribly boring for most people...but I need somewhere to document it, and this is where it is going to be :)

I hope this finds you well, and hopefully you will see a bit more of me here on the blog now that I have something really fun to post about (for me anyway)

With Love,

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

A little bit of everything

So, it has been a while. I think some of that was on purpose...I didn't want to just word vomit all over the internet.

Life has been good. Full of change and challenge, but good. Since I last wrote I have a new job! How I loved being a nanny and looking after such a fun and vibrant little boy, but the change was welcomed and I am enjoying my new job as well. I now sit in an office all day, which I am finding is not ideal...I need my vitamin D! But I love the predictability of my hours and the fact that I am learning and growing and growing a skill set that will be so helpful for me in future job searches.

Things have been good and challenging. I have been learning how to be kind to myself. I am learning how to make mistakes and not let them be devastating to me. I am learning that there is no such thing as a balance between work and everything else you want to do. Finding that balance, or rather not finding it, has been incredibly difficult for me.

The time I do find to do the things that breathe life into me, is spent a lot on my long time desire to learn calligraphy. I think in a lot of ways, calligraphy is teaching me that there is no such thing as perfect. It challenges the perfectionist in me, and I think that is a good thing.

More than anything right now, I am searching for God's purpose in my time here. Not my time here on earth as in the purpose of life...but the purpose of my physical location. My job, my church, my neighborhood. It is something I have struggled with a lot here and I recently read from "Jesus Today" by Sarah Young that "There are many different ways to wait, and some are much better than others. Beneficial waiting involves looking to Me continually-trusting and loving Me." So, I am trying to find what it means to wait where I am beneficially. Waiting is hard.

Anyway, I would post some pictures but I literally have not been taking any. What is wrong with me?! The last picture I have of Noah and myself is from our 2 year anniversary....all the way back on September 4th. What the heck.

I hope this finds you all well. Not sure what this blog will be or turn into...I have projects that I have been doing but as I said, finding work and life balance has been difficult and so who knows when those things will be posted. But it does feel good to write again...writing can be therapeutic.

With love,

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Thin Place

I would not be a real APU girl if I was not in the Shauna Niequist fan club. Luckily for me, she is an easy person to be a fan of. I have read two of her books, most recently finishing Bittersweet. Saying that I loved it would be an understatement.

As I was reading this book I literally felt like she knew me and my life and how everything that has happened and is happening makes me feel. I love when I feel understood. One of the chapters in the book has continued to resonate with me and I just can't tell enough people about it and how they should read it.

The chapter I am talking about concentrates on the idea of a thin place, "A thin place, according to the Celtic mystics, is a place where the boundary between the natural world and the supernatural one is more permeable-thinner, if you will. Sometimes they're physical places. There are places all over Ireland where people have said, if you stand here, if you face this direction, if you hike to the top of that ridge at just the right time of day, that's a thin place, a place where the passage between heaven and earth is a short one, a place where God's presence is almost palpable." (from Bittersweet) I could read that over and over again. I immediately thought of 2 physical places for me that feel as though they are a thin place.

One of those places is a little camping spot my parents and I happened upon one year when I rolled my ankle backpacking. We had a different destination in mind, but instead had to find somewhere closer, and we scored in a big way. We continued to go back to that place year after year and every time I am there, I feel like things are right in the world. I feel a peace that I usually don't, I feel God in a big way.

The second place might sound strange, but there is a sense of peace and hope that I get every time I visit Oregon. This last time as I ate at Nearly Normals with Hilary and Noah, and then the next night cooking dinner with Hilary in her cute little house, that was a thin place. As Noah and I spent time in our favorite sleepy little town outside of Ashland, that was a thin place. And as we ate dinner around a table at Tom and Elaine's little cabin on a hill, spent a dreary day wine tasting, and Noah teaching Elaine the art of the slack line, that was a thin space.

I love that I can identify a couple physical places for me that I know I feel that peace and hope and joy. What is hard about that, though, is also becoming fully aware of where those thin places are not. As Noah put it, the thick places. Places that feel really hard and impossible to feel much of anything at all...those places exist too. Right now, I am living in one of those places and days, weeks, months are battles to break through to something.

And I guess that all leaves me wondering if it is possible to make a thick place into a thin place...and if so, how on earth do you go about doing that?

Here are a few pictures from my time in Oregon. I didn't take many at all, I was too busy enjoying the peace and joy and the presence of people I love dearly.

I hope you have a thin place of your own...I think we all need a place like that. 

With Love,

Wednesday, May 15, 2013


A few days ago I ran across an article talking about Abercrombie & Fitch and, in my opinion, their appalling marketing techniques. The CEO of A&F, Mike Jeffries was quoted in an interview some time ago saying "In every school there are the cool and popular kids, and then there are the not-so-cool kids. We go after the cool kids. A lot of people don't belong and they can't belong. Are we exclusionary? Absolutely."If you haven't yet heard about all of this, here is a short news video to catch you up for what this post is really about.

Here is the thing, I read an article about all of this nonsense first and it really upset me. I was floored that someone would so blatantly talk about being exclusive and only wanting 'cool kids' to wear the clothes. However, other than not buying their clothes (not a problem, I never have, but you can bet I won't be buying their number 8 perfume anymore) and encouraging others to do the same, I wasn't sure what there was to do. Some people are protesting outside of stores, others are sending their purchased A&F clothing back to the company in protest. And then there is this guy, he made a video with an idea of how to change the image of A&F. 

His idea if you have yet to see the video is to go to thrift stores and purchase every pice of A&F clothing you can find and give it to the homeless. Ask your friends to look through their closets and look through yours too and give all the A&F apparel away to the homeless. I can appreciate his heart (I am assuming it was a good natured thought) but I REALLY disagree with the message it is sending. I feel that the video is just saying that the homeless don't fit that cool kid mold either but we are going to really piss Jeffries off by having all of them wear his clothes. While I love the idea of making that guy super upset about his brand not being what he wants it to be, I feel that giving the clothes to the homeless just further confirms the idea that they are less than, or beneath an ideal. I think the idea of clothing the homeless is great. But I think clothing them for this purpose does more harm than good.

I know these thoughts aren't totally brain is still processing everything. But I felt that something should be said to the contrary. I will not be joining the #FitchTheHomeless movement. I will continue to look at the homeless as people with hopes and dreams and stories, not just a means for me to get my point across. And I would hope that you would join me in not supporting A&F.